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“LAUGHING IN THE DARK”

For the last couple of weeks, I was experiencing this horrific spinning sensation in my head. My balance was off, and I felt like I was on a merry-go-round with no control panel. It was later concluded that I had Vertigo………….V-E-R-T-I-G-O! If anyone is familiar with the ailment, it is listed under Idiopathic disorders, meaning there is no direct cause or cure for the ailment. Vertigo can occur for many or no reasons at all that are detectable. I immediately thought to my self, Oh Great!, there is no single cause and no immediate cure. How was I suppose to go about my regular daily routine, one being, chasing behind my three year that has endless energy?

My first indication that something was wrong with me was that when I woke up that Sunday morning, before my feet could hit the ground safely, everything around me began to shift and move. I mean everything was moving, except me.¬† Thank goodness I am not one to panic. I just closed my eyes, held on to my nightstand, and slid back on to my bed and called my for husband. Truly had I not sat back down, I would have fainted for sure, or hit the floor. Minutes turned to hours, yet I wasn’t getting any better. The constant moving sensation was almost unbearable.¬† The only way to accurately describe Vertigo, is a Merry-go-round that refuses to stop in your head. You can be sitting perfectly still, yet you feel as if you are uncontrollably¬† moving.

Later on in the day, I thought good of it to try and make it out of the bed. This time rising slowly, almost geriatric like just attempting to sit on the edge of my bed. Never have I been more thankful for my husband, who not only took care of our little tot, but assisted me in the miniscule tasks of walking down the hallway. Things that I have taken for granted because I was always privileged to do them, such as walking, dressing myself, going to the bathroom, etc., I was now at the mercy of my inability to do for myself. Being a serious thinker of the plights of other, I dared not complain. Although I found myself unsure when my good health would return or even if it would return, I recognized that there are people in this world who have been dealt hands far worse than I will ever know or experience. So, I write my reasoning on my blog because somewhere, someone is reading this and it may speak to their existence or current circumstances. Not all things in life will leave you tip toeing through the tulips, yet you can still make the best of any given situation. I keep in the forefront of my mind, that everything must change, and not always for the better, so sometimes we have to buckle up and hold on.

As the day turned to night and I was laying in bed, I found myself, laughing in the dark, for reasons unknown to me, just as my Idiopathic disorder. Keeping in mind that my biggest physical digressions in life have been the gravitational pull of the earth on my private parts, and with that being said, I became thankful for the new spin on life. LOL

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